Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.
- Hebrews 13:8
While everything in my life is constantly changing and moving so fast I feel as if I can’t keep up with it, I know that I can hold on to the hope I have in God. He is unchanging, forever faithful, and forever loving. When I feel like my own desires and dreams change suddenly and it becomes overwhelming and scary, I know I can run to God and He will hear me. He is the Everlasting One.
I posted this a few days ago because at that moment I read it, I saw how God has done that in the past for me. I want to repost this again today because I see where God may be bringing me and how He will in the near future. Four years ago, as I applied to colleges, I didn’t know exactly where I wanted go or what I wanted to study yet either. I had an idea, but I still wasn’t sure what was the right choice. But He closed the doors I didn’t need to go through and kept one open. He brought me to CSULB and He’s brought me through the past 4 years, showing me how He knew all along this was the right path for me. Now, after applying to PT schools, He’s brought me to one already. Someone said, “You had little faith you’d even get into this school, but God has opened this door for you. If God is going to get you into USC, He is going to get you through USC.” WELL LOOKIE THERE, she said the exact same words as this post shows. Now it’s my choice whether to let finances worry me and deter me or to let God continue to show me just how faithful He is and how He provides for His children. I’m praying for His peace in making the final decision soon.
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” - Matthew 6:34
“Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.” - Hebrews 10:23
But quiet confidence in God alone breeds stability and delight amid ‘all the changing scenes of life.’ - DA Carson (Big God)
The most reasonable thing possible is to trust God, who has proven Himself trustworthy. That’s why the psalmist said in Psalm 130:5: “I wait for the Lord, and my soul does wait, and in His word do I hope.” - Britt Merrick (Big God)
This was the chapter I read and studied in small groups with MSF at the time I just turned in my applications for PT school. I remember each word spoke loudly to me about what I should do next as I waited. As we wait, in faith, we need to “realize our faith is to be an active faith.” So I honestly forgot about applications, except the few times I had to deal with transcripts.
7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. - Phil 4:7
This was a verse I read this past week and it reminded me of where I was in this whole application process. Anyway, all I have been thinking about lately is getting finals over with and then having fun with friends and family! Well today…… YAYYY! I got accepted into one of the PT programs!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D I know I’ll have somewhere to go at least yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Praise God because I truly know I couldn’t do this myself ever. It was truly a blessing unexpected. :)
It was Christmas Eve, and the family was preparing to attend the special service of their local church. Everyone was going except Dad, who was an honest man, a man who could not seem to wrap his logical mind around the story of God come to earth as a baby in a manger. He didn’t want to be a hypocrite, pretending to worship a Savior he wasn’t sure even existed, so he stayed home, built a fire to dispel the bitter cold of that winter night and began to read the paper, waiting for his family’s return. Hearing a knock at the window, he turned to see a tiny bird trying to reach the warmth of the fire. The man opened the window, but the bird refused to come in. Grabbing his coat, the man went out to the barn and opened the barn doors wide – but still, the bird refused to come in. The man thought, “If only I could be a bird, for just one minute, I could lead the bird to safety.” At that moment, he heard the church bells ring and finally understood why Jesus came to earth as a man — to become one of us so He could lead us to eternal safety.
I pray I won’t forget the reason why we celebrate Christmas. As finals come up and 20 different events and parties and everything are happening, I don’t want to pass by Christmas and then realize I didn’t give my time to the one and only true God.
I hear the Savior say, “Thy strength indeed is small; Child of weakness, watch and pray, Find in Me thine all in all.”
This was one of the songs we sang tonight at our church’s Annual Thanksgiving Dinner. This was the first year that Mustard Seed Fellowship planned the entire dinner for the church. When they first asked I thought wow, they really think we can do this?! This is huge! It’s the church’s Annual Dinner! As I sang these words, I look back at my thoughts that first moment and I see how I was weak and lacking strength. Yet, we “watch and pray” and “find in Him thine all in all.” God said, “Why do you doubt and feel scared and stress and be anxious?! Look at all these people around you that I have equipped with certain skills. Do it without any doubt or fear because I am God.” And He is God Almighty. Everyone dove in and did their part. People enjoyed a hearty dinner, short but sweet message, awesome singing, and a fun game. What a great way to serve the church God loves. When He is the center of attention and things are done for Him and His people, there is no reason to ever doubt.
Thank you all who helped tonight. Seriously was amazing! Praise the Lord!
I had to present an article today regarding Gait in Adults. I had found this article that studied the gait characteristics of people with Prader-Willi Syndrome compared to healthy obese individuals and healthy individuals. After we finished presenting it, the professor asked how many people in the world have this syndrome. Somewhere it said it affects 1 in 10,000 (don’t quote me, my other partner said it so I trust him). The professor then goes on to laugh and say, “I’ve never even heard of this syndrome, how did they find 19 people with it?!” Everyone else in the class chuckled along after that comment. However, she continued and added, “Is there like a village somewhere where they have it?” Again chuckles. She didn’t ask us whether the results of this study were significant or not.
Now I chose this article because I’ve met a child with Prader-Willi Syndrome before in the clinic I volunteered at. He had the sweetest, most adorable face with a personality to match it. Yes, he was much bigger than children his age due to his syndrome. One of the features of people with Prader-Willi is an insatiable appetite. He was mainly there for therapy to build up his leg muscle strength though. He was the first patient I observed during my time at the clinic.
The moment you realize that in 7 months, grad school or no grad school, life will be changing and it scares you for a good hour.
I’m doing all these applications and trying to finish everything that needs to be finished that I haven’t yet sat down and really thought about anything else but finishing this and that. But today, instead of finishing my statement of purpose, I sat here thinking about where I might be and how things as I know it might change. Grad school or no grad school, things are going to change dramatically. It’s kind of scary.
Thankfully God prepared me right before I fell into this freaked out phase. At AACF today, the speaker asked us why are we so stressed all the time? Why are we so scared all the time about security and future and this and that? It’s because we don’t trust God enough and we don’t believe that the Word will help us overcome obstacles. Is the Word what predominantly changes my life and is it the most important truth in my life? Well, I sure hope and want it to be. Have I been living like it is? No.
__________: You won’t go crazy with school if you set your sights on God and understand that if He’s entrusted you with the stewardship of being a student then He will see you through. He might not give you the little steps but the overall big picture is taken care of already. ^He knew I would argue with him but I couldn’t argue with who God is. Smart model, this man. ;)
Well, I’m still stuck on my statement of purpose but at least I’m getting over this “What?1?!” thingy.
I was helping my dad research the statistics of divorce rates amongst Christians and for the first few stats I found, they all said it was about 30-40%, close to the numbers of total divorces in the US. I found that to be discouraging until I found some more rates on this site.
"Many people who seriously practice a traditional religious faith — be it Christian or other — have a divorce rate markedly lower than the general population. The factor making the most difference is religious commitment and practice. Couples who regularly practice any combination of serious religious behaviors and attitudes — attend church nearly every week, read their Bibles and spiritual materials regularly; pray privately and together; generally take their faith seriously, living not as perfect disciples, but serious disciples — enjoy significantly lower divorce rates than mere church members, the general public and unbelievers.
"Whether young or old, male or female, low-income or not, those who said that they were more religious reported higher average levels of commitment to their partners, higher levels of marital satisfaction, less thinking and talking about divorce and lower levels of negative interaction. These patterns held true when controlling for such important variables as income, education, and age at first marriage.”
Saying you believe something or merely belonging to a church, unsurprisingly, does little for marriage. But the more you are involved in the actual practice of your faith in real ways — through submitting yourself to a serious body of believers, learning regularly from Scripture, being in communion with God though prayer individually and with your spouse and children, and having friends and family around you who challenge you to take you marriage’s seriously — the greater difference this makes in strengthening both the quality and longevity of our marriages. Faith does matter and the leading sociologists of family and religion tell us so.”
Much more encouraged after reading that. I don’t know much about marriage myself yet obviously but I have seen the difference between my own parents’ marriage when they were just “churchgoers” and compared to now, as they’ve taken their faith seriously and strive to be better. I am going to start praying now that my future marriage would include all that I put in bold.
Ever since I’ve started commuting this school year, I’ve had long bouts of just driving and thinking. 1/4 of the time just on purely random things that come to mind, 1/4 of the time fantasizing and pretending I’m driving some awesome cool car, 1/4 of the time on the upcoming day or past day (if I’m driving home), and 1/4 of the time on church/MSF/prayer. Those proportions are probably not very accurate but whatever. Here are my very random thoughts lately:
1. If I am driving with only one hand on the wheel, I prefer to use my left hand even though I’m right-hand dominant. I thought that was very weird and I finally realized today that it’s because I use my right hand to do a multitude of other things. That includes: eating cheeseburgers, opening bottle caps, answering phone calls (when necessary), changing radio stations/Ipod music, dig in backpack for chapstick, etc. I was trying to eat my cheeseburger with left hand and steer with right hand today but I did a VERY poor job of it. Odd huh? I think it is.
2. In my car, since it’s older, I can only move the seat forward and backward in those set notches (get what I mean?). For my height, I can’t find the perfect notch! There’s these two I keep switching back and forth with. One, I press on gas and brake just fine but when I press on brake, I feel my foot is dorsiflexing too much (toe towards knee, not towards floor) and it’s uncomfy. Put it one notch back and brakes are fine but I’m sort of pointing my toes a little too much to press gas further at times. I can’t stay comfy with either one :(.
3. I don’t hate commuting as much as I thought I would. I sort of enjoy coming home everyday to family and Lexi. Maybe it’s because my parents have learned to give me freedom though I still live at home. I don’t know, but I actually like it. I am used a lot more though by family now -_-. I don’t have to cook anymore yay! I haven’t gained any weight though since living at home. Thought I would blow up since my mom’s cooking is quite awesome. I also have enjoyed not paying rent. Only downer is I filled my gas up end of Sunday, and today I’m already at the halfway mark. I’ve only gone to school twice so far!
4. God is good. Not only has He kept me safe on the road but He knew staying at home this year would be good for me. I get to go to BSF and learn much more about the Bible than I have the past 21 years of my life. I get to be an example to my sister, hopefully a good one most of the time. By the way, I’m the main one in the family teaching her how to drive (I know what ya’ll are thinking :D). Plus I get good family time until I go to grad school (if and when I do) because I’ll have to move out for sure.
Okay, done rambling. I told you- I have way too much time on those drives to think about anything, everything, and sometimes nothing.
"Compassion is not just sympathy. It is empathy. When it comes to dealing with difficult people, we mistakenly equate compassion with “fixing” them. Genuine compassion is first able to feel their pain. I believe one of the reasons we encounter and are commanded to deal with sandpaper people is because the more pain we experience, the more compassionate we will be. We must learn to use our pain in the right way, not lashing out, but looking within to share the pain of others. There is a choice in every pain, an opportunity in every trial. Pain makes us focus inward or outward. It makes us martyrs or merciful. The choice is ours."- Mary Southerland, Girlfriends in God Devotional
This summer was busy and tiring, but also amazing and Peter-filled. God decided to finally bless us with a summer together since I started college. Last year, Peter and I switched off going to China/Hong Kong and had maybe only 3 weeks total together over the summer. This time around, I was seeing him almost daily from July till now. It has been such a wonderful gift from God. Not only did I get to “enjoy his company” often, I got to be encouraged and feel his support through my PT application process, work, apartment dilemmas, first weeks of commuting, and well, life. In 3 days, San Diego will be taking him back. It’s okay, I’ll get him back in the end.
To those who have been sniffed in the butt by Lexi
I apologize for all the times she has sniffed your butt or private area and I apologize in advance for any more instances of it in the future. I asked the trainer today about that issue and the trainer first laughed, then said, “Well of course, she’s the perfect height for it!” So unless you’re a baby/toddler or 6 feet tall, you just might have to bear with me as I continue to find the best way to get her out of the habit. The trainer did give me some tips so hopefully we will see some results sometime soon. She also said as a girl dog, Lexi sure has a load of testosterone in her. I have to say though, out of all the dogs in the class, I sure am glad I have her. They’re all extremely cute and wonderful but their energy is boundless, way more than I could ever handle.
Anyway, I am sorry for all the butt-sniffing. I’ll try my best to minimize that.
"Ultimately the love of God is the basis for all our hopes." "The blessing of His love comes to us not because we deserve it, but simply and only because of His sovereign grace." - John MacArthur, Ephesians study guide.
"This is how God sees you.
You are a child of God. John 1:12 You are justified- completely forgiven. Romans 5:1 You are free from condemnation. Romans 8:1 You have the mind of Christ. 1 Corinthians 2:16 You have been made righteous. 2 Corinthians 5:21 You have been blessed with every spiritual blessing. Ephesians 1:3 You are righteous and holy. Ephesians 4:24 You have been redeemed and forgiven of all your sins. Colossians 1:14 You are a dwelling place for Christ. He lives in you. Colossians 1:27 You are complete in Christ. Colossians 2:10 You are chosen of God, holy and dearly loved. Colossians 3:12 You have been given a spirit of power, love and self-discipline. 2 Timothy 1:7 You have been given exceedingly great and precious promises by God by which you are a partaker of God’s divine nature. 2 Peter 1:4”
This morning I finally woke up with enough time to sit here and open up my devotionals to read and meditate on.
Real beauty isn’t about a finished or flawless product. It can’t be. It’s not possible on this side of eternity to have completed beauty. Our restoration will be complete in the presence of God when we see Him face to face.
Two nights ago I went to see Taylor Swift in concert. She was amazing, but that’s not the only reason I love her. Her songs are stories and many times they’re about this fantasy romance, but she also sings about being “Fifteen” and how her friend gets caught up in this high school whirlwind romance only to come out crying and hurting. As I listened to it that night, I realized that’s exactly the kind of expectations I had about love when I was 15. But I look at where I am today and I see how God has molded me from those experiences, has taught me countless lessons on relying only on His unchanging love, and is continuing to build me. I’m far from perfect now but I know that as I keep walking with Him on His path, I’ll get there.
All the while, You hear each spoken need. Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things. Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops? What if Your healing comes through tears? What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near? What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?
17 Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. - James 1:17
I took the GREs and celebrated my birthday this week. In this one week alone, I got to see how much God has blessed me with. It wasn’t just that He gave me strength to finish the GREs and receive a decent score. It also wasn’t just the fact that it was my birthday and I had a lot of fun. This week I got to experience God’s flowing love through the brothers and sisters I have in Christ.
While I sat there, still in shock with my firework-like candle, I looked around to see each and every perfect gift from God celebrating my birthday with me. In that moment, I couldn’t have felt more blessed to share a friendship with each and every one of them. Thank You. Thank you everyone for your friendship, gifts, and surprises (or I should say almost-surprises). You guys are amazing.
I used to be able to go to high school from 8-3, then go to work until 5/6 or showchoir practices once a week until 6, go home, finish all my hw while chatting online with multiple people, and go to sleep after 12 am. This cycle would go on for five days in a row. When it came to Friday nights, I’d still be able to stay up and watch shows or talk on the phone way past 1 am. Now, after 1 day of volunteering from 9-12, 3 days straight of 8 hour work, and 1 day of volunteer from 8-12 and entertaining MSF at my place at night, I’m already exhausted and ready to fall asleep. It’s not even 11:30 yet! I don’t know how we did it back then. College life has pampered us too sweetly.
Took me long enough to realize this but through all this, I see that God is good in that He had me move back home three weeks before I had planned to. Thus, I have avoided the bedbug situation in LB and kept Lexi safe from them too. Thank You. All I did at first was worry about my next step, instead of looking back at how gracious He truly is.
Today in my Abnormal Psychology class we talked about Alzheimer’s Disease. In an attempt to tune out the professor, I chatted with two lovely ladies on gchat instead. I wasn’t trying to tune out the professor because I was bored and just didn’t want to listen. I didn’t want to listen to what was being said because everything reminded me of my grandpa. Knowing me, I’d most probably tear up at the slightest reminder of how fragile my grandpa seems. Amazingly though, his disease has progressed very slowly because his nursing home makes him work and use his brain. And because of that he has the chance to go to church and accept Christ. This month sometime he’s getting baptized and he didn’t even know to tell my dad. But the most important part here is that he is getting baptized. My dad’s deepest hope for his parents have been granted by our Father this year. With faith, we can move mountains. With faith, hearts of stones can be melted. With faith, God will show us wonders beyond what we can imagine.
This past weekend we had our MSF retreat and the theme was based upon faith and fellowship. This fellowship is my family. This fellowship is a testimony of Christ’s love and the hope He gives us. <3
Right now, I think I’ll try to learn a few more new languages to lower my risk of getting Alzheimer’s Disease.
I had a dream last night that I was super late to our meeting place on Friday and I even forgot to buy the things I was responsible for buying. That tells me I’ve been thinking about our upcoming camping trip way. too. much. Let’s hope that really doesn’t happen. I can just already imagine myself waking up at every hour to check the clock to make sure I’m not going to be late.
I’m super excited though. This is the first time we’ll have that many people going to a camping trip! Knowing that I’ll be going with people I love makes it that much better. Knowing that God put all of us together and gave us this opportunity makes it even better. Knowing there’s only one bathroom for 30 of us doesn’t excite me but I’m going to admit I’m curious to know how everything will work out. That reminds me to remind everyone to shower before coming on Friday!
Two different exams this past week! SUPER deep-fried brain made it through both of them! Praise God!
Friday, I had my volunteer at Center for Developing Kids from 8-12. When I first called them to ask if I could come back to volunteer, I thought about the many hours I still needed to complete so I just thought I could do it at 8. But that meant these past two weeks I have to be somewhere by 8…. waking up at 6:30 sucks! The past two Fridays though I realized that though I have to wake up early and I am volunteering for 4 hours, I didn’t need coffee. I love volunteering there so much that it is absolutely easy to stay awake and stay interested and amazed. I love observing these kids that may have disabilities, but are still happy and beautiful. The best part is getting to sit in on a treatment and watch as the therapist revert back to a child in order to engage the child, or go through 20 different toys to see which one would get the child’s attention. Being a pediatric physical therapist means that for EVERY treatment and EVERY child, you are challenged in finding the best approach and best way to get the child to do what you need them to do- walking, moving, etc. Unlike adults, they don’t understand what you’re saying, nor do they want to do half the things you ask them to do. AHHHH I can’t wait to graduate and go through PT program and finally get to that point! Anyway, I was going to write this post because I just thought how wonderful God is in allowing me to find this place and find what hopefully will be a career that is challenging, yet joyful, and a great way to be of service to Him, the parents, and the children. But I guess I must first get through this summer X_X
Shower time is a great time to think and reflect on the day. Today was a long long day. Two 4-hour classes right after another is never a “fun” day. Amazingly, drank two cups of coffee for the first time and actually stayed awake through BOTH classes. The moment I woke up at 6:30, I knew there was no way I’d last the day without some time of stimulant.
Today though, I was reminded of how God has his perfect timing and He prepares us. My devotionals for two days of this week prepared me for today. I was also reminded today that no matter how worthless I might feel, Christ thought me worthy to die for. I am His and He is mine.
You’re the first LB graduate I sat through the entire ceremony for. It was worth every disgusting probably-sun-burnt tan line I now proudly have. It was so exciting to see you finally walk up to the stage and be handed the “diploma”. After 1.75 years of watching you stress and cry and scream, we end up here today, where you graduated with a huge smile. Praise the Lord, Hallelujer. God knew you had it in you to do all this and He’ll carry you through to the end of it. I can’t wait for your pinning ceremony- the moment you can officially call yourself a “real” nurse. Congratulations, Rebecca Law! <3
Watching you graduate today has gotten me so excited for next year!
I wonder if Lexi really saw my dad trying to save her life two nights ago from that dog and is now showing him more affection. She used to just be friendly around him, but now it’s almost as if they’re best friends. They wrestle together with blankets, they play tug-a-war with squeaky dolls in the house together, and every time she goes upstairs, she tends to go into his room first. It’s almost like a love affair, seriously. A little unsettling but superbly cute at times.
Most stressed about school I’ve ever been but I don’t want to talk about that in this post. What I want to talk about are the people I’ll miss because I just spent the past two years getting to know them as my sisters. It’s finally starting to dawn on me that this is real and you two are leaving :(.
1. Priscilla Jang- I’m going to miss your guitar playing and your singing. I’m going to miss talking with you about whatever random things pop up. I’m going to miss your big laugh and your loud screams when you see a spider! I’ll miss the times we share whatever is on our mind. I’m going to miss our gossip girl and glee nights! It’s crazy to think that two years ago we didn’t even know each other yet and now you’re like my sister and I love sharing this small apt with you. I’m so excited for you at USC and I hope and pray that God will just continue to guide you through it all and that you enjoy studying there. I’m glad you’re still close by enough :):):)!! And you never have to worry, you are definitely invited ;);)- you know what I’m talking about :D.
2. Kelly Lew- It’s going to be so weird not having you around here at the apts either! We knew each other since high school and during my first year of college, you and R.Law both helped make the first year so much better. I’m going to miss your smile with the biggest dimples. I’m going to miss all the talking we do too! Oh, I will definitely miss Gossip Girl and Glee nights also!! I think we should all totally vchat while watching it one day ;). It’s awesome to see you finish and about to start something new. I hope that God will bless you also with whatever you do in the upcoming future and may you enjoy the work He provides you with.
I just have a bunch of random things that I wanted to jot down and remember about today.
1. Love worshiping with our worship team today :).
2. Pre-K and Kindergarten kids will make you lose your voice and energy, especially when one girl wants to kiss another girl and the other girl comes running towards you to tell you she’s scared. But they always keep you on your feet on what to say and how to say things with gentleness and in ways they can understand you.
3. My mom saying, “Are you going to eat first then walk Lexi, or are you going to walk her then eat her?” Then after laughing, she continues by saying how she thinks Lexi would be really tasty. EW!
4. I watched my dad lie down on the floor just to let Lexi lick his entire face and give him a wet willy. Most absurd sight ever.
5. I just have an awesome man by my side.
6. Awaiting Tuesday to be over with so I can finally enjoy life. Just kidding, I enjoy life, but I can’t wait to get physics over with!
At one point in this semester I really thought I wasn’t going to pass a class and I have never had that feeling before and I was scared because I thought about how it would mess up my plans for the upcoming semesters. But I just said oh well, try harder next time. And with God’s grace, I was able to and get out of that scary zone. Now it’s almost time for finals, and all I want to do is just get all these tests over with. I feel more pressure now than that moment when I thought I might fail that class. UGH! I just had to write it out.
A few months ago I thought about all the things I needed to do in order to get ready to apply to Physical Therapy programs and I asked myself why in the world I even chose this in the first place. There were so many things I needed to do, I didn’t even know where to start. Felt like going into something different so I could avoid it all. But these past two weeks, I’ve gotten the ball rolling and it’s been a little relieving.
- Signed up for another prereq class for summer. - Figured out my senior year schedule (almost) - Signed up for GRE’s :(. Got books to start studying for it from Katherine - Set up summer volunteer schedule with Center for Developing Kids again - Applied for Arcadia Methodist Volunteer, hoping to get into the PT and Rehab Unit. - Asked for Professor Recommendation already - easier than I thought.
I’m just readying myself for a hectic summer now because there’s still so much to do! Oh, and also financially draining summer with the applications and summer school. I can’t wait till I finish the GRE test and just have a great 21st birthday, no matter what I’m doing.
I drove up to a BOA drive-thru ATM, rolled down my windows and was about to stick my card in when I noticed a load of little flies just hanging around the ATM. I don’t mean a group, I mean mass loads of flies. I quickly stuck my hand back in and got ready to drive off as quickly as I could. I looked forward through front windshield and saw TONS of them already on my windshield. Then I looked down and saw some on my legs!!! I quickly closed my side window and drove off as fast as I could so the flies would be blown off. When they were all gone, I opened my window again and tried to get the flies on me out. I screamed, waved my arms around, and drove. Got to a second ATM and it had the same flies all over it!! But this time it was 100x less than the other one so I quickly got my money and ran off. I can still feel them on me… :( If you know me, you know I detest insects with everything I have. Scariest moment.
Before that though, I printed my hw out right before class and still ended up forgetting to bring it to class :(. Thank goodness instructor was awesome and let me turn it in late.
In these past two weeks, God has shown our family how beautifully sovereign He is in every detail. God knows when to give and when to take and how to do so with the most grace. He allowed my grandma to open her eyes and see all her children, even the ones that live in North America who flew red-eyes out. He allowed her to be able to listen and understand as my dad shared the gospel with her. He gave her enough time to ponder and accept Him. He gave her a whole week to spend time with her sons and daughters. He took her away peacefully, so that she no longer had to endure anymore pain. He gave us time to prepare for that moment. Perfect timing, perfect grace, He is perfect.
I will see you again one day and we’ll get to spend more time together
Literally. She is like a baby. First I had to buy baby gates for the stairway so that she doesn’t go upstairs because my mom doesn’t want her to. (Yes, I do let her come up with me sometimes when my mom isn’t home. Can’t help it- I rather keep an eye on her while I’m doing stuff upstairs anyway.) She has to have daily walks out so that she can relieve herself and someone else can pick up after her. I don’t know whether changing a baby’s diapers or picking up her poop is worse. Either way, at least with a diaper, you don’t have to worry too much about making sure it doesn’t get onto the carpet. I even have to carry a bag of her stuff from apt to home every weekend.
She’s a smart dog though. Maybe a little too smart. First she figured out how to lift the kennel door if I don’t put the two locks and only push it down into place. Now, we might even have to babyproof our trashcan. She has finally figured out how to use her nose to push open the lid and help herself to fried chicken. Freaking dog is going to turn into a sausage one day.
Best part of the day - Finding out that I can kick physics is the behind and say, “Beat that! You thought you could own me but Cramster says you won’t!”
Worst part of the day - It’s nothing for sure yet, but the fact that there is a possibility I might commute next year is sucking. For once kind of stressing over something more than usual. But I do remember how God has provided for me since day 1. I know however things work out, God has a plan.
I almost forgot that Lent has pretty much ended. I still woke up this morning thinking how after I walk the dog, I’ll do my devos. Then I realized Lent technically is over already. However, I really have enjoyed waking up earlier to do devos, even if I end up taking a short nap right after. God has plenty of reminders everyday for me. Kind of crazy though, I don’t think I’ve ever gone this long without a day to sleep in. Haven’t slept past 8:30 for the past two months almost. I miss it… I miss waking up knowing that half my day is almost over already and it’s almost time to eat lunch :D. Maybe this Saturday I will.